sleepy time

...is complicated. every night i try to go to bed a midnight, but it never works out. Lilli is a night owl- with her constant kicking and punching along with lots of contractions and nausea, i can never get to sleep. i made cason go for a walk with me at 3 am last night (he hadn't been to bed yet- Dotson's don't sleep) and then i got chatty and we talked until 4. i'm really grateful he put up with it, i'm sure the conversation wasn't very interesting, but it helped me not think about the pain i was in. i think i finally fell asleep around 5:30 in the morning and woke up at 3 in the afternoon...which unfortunately has become a pattern for me. i honestly really hate it, i feel like i waste each day, but i just can't seem to get it right. we'll see what happens after the baby comes!